the beauty of life.

that's where I am now. it's nice. i mean it's california. but, I don't like it. actually that's not true. I do like it. not as much as I like rome though. and maybe also because the one I want to be with, is not here.

anyway, sometimes I surprise myself with my intuition, Im right a lot of times. sometimes I expect people to do things, but refuse to believe that they actually have the courage to do so, to be that stupid I mean. people are egoistic, which is good, but to some extent. if you are just thinking about yourself, but believe that you are not, and hurt others, what do you get out of that? it's just being immature, or jealous? or maybe both. it definitely has to do with insecurity. Im not superwoman, I do make mistakes. I try to admit to them too, even if it's hard sometimes, cause nobody wants to make mistakes right? But the strongest people can admit to their wrong doings, people who don't, well... they are the ones who will suffer, even though they don't admit being wrong, they know they are, deep inside. To me it's actually satisfying in a way, when i know that a person knows that I know that they're doing something wrong, and they won't admit it to me. I can see it in their face, feel their energy and feel how uncomfortable they get around me. but hey, it's okay! i know better, and I don't judge. If you are not mature enough, no worries, but i have no time to waste, so Ill let it pass.

coming here in the end wasn't a waste. I've learned a lot. again. that's the beauty of life, that we never stop to learn!

I've learned to be more careful and think things through, not put all my trust in people, because there are only a few people who are like I am, to always believe that everyone is good.

they're not.

and I've learned to take action, before speaking and telling my ideas. maybe it's me learning not to be that naive! well great! I am happy I came. I did something out of the situation.

and elsk, thank you, you rock my world, you know you do ;)