girly night

i decided to stay in tonight. didn't feel like going to the club. then i wanted to. the dj was willing to pick me up (since I'm still without a car) but then I decided to leave my man alone. ehehe

"too much love will kill you."

so i stayed in, did my manicure, pedicure and facial and was on internet. was a bit down. after my talking to mommy today i felt a bit family sick. wanted to see them. the baby was talking in the background and then i talked to my other niece and nephew. when my nephew asked me to go visit them, my heart melted. ok, yeah he is 17 so he's more or less like a brother, and we are really close. I miss him. them. a lot. I think i might go now when I have nothing to do... for two weeks, at least. to catch up some missing time. and to be spoiled ehehe.

Im watching italian tv. the only thing of quality is chiambretti night. he's awesome. intelligent and funny. le iene is another show, worth watching. it's just this thing with the girls on italian tv. it's more like strippers. if you are italian or in italy and have watched le strisce delle notizie they have two girls, a blonde and a brown haired girl. what they do there, i never really got. they dance, in mini outfits and make more or less only fools out of themselves. the best part is though, that once their contracts are over, most part of them are dating the soccer players (probably because they're the only stupid ones giggling along) is that they'll get huge contracts, movie, model etc. yes, they are pretty. but do they have to dance and just look stupid? hm...really italian tv sucks!

anyway chiambretti is still on... i better not miss it.

aperitivo

yesterday I went to the gym. a bit angry over my situation, so the best place to go is of course the gym! I went there, and this one woman, typical italian, she always tries to ignore me. I never really understood this concept, but obviously she feels intimidated by me for some reason. Before I would just wait for my turn and stand there and smile until someone helped me, but after living in Italy so long, I too, have adopted this "concept." So when she tried to help someone else, who had arrived after me, I interrupted and said it's actually my turn so would you mind helping me. hahaha I would pay to see her face again. Biaaaatch!

anyway I went into the locker room only to realize that I had forgotten my running shoes at home. I didn't know whether to laugh or cry. anyhow I decided to at least do something so I spent an hour lifting weights. then got back home and got ready to go out with my girlfriends. Since I've only been back a month in Italy and since I've spent most of this month at the club, I haven't been out nor met people, other then the people who came to the club.

So arriving at the place, which was really crowded... I couldn't take one step without meeting a friend, which was really nice of course. but after an hour had past without me being actually able to reach my friends who I went there to meet, it got somewhat frustrating. my friends then was like "anna your worse than a celebrity." i do have to admit, that it was a bit too much of attention, even for me.

today at lunch I had an other interview, at a place I've actually worked before, and liked, but this time for another position. next week they'll send me a proposal, and then we'll see!

i just got off the phone with my mom and niece and nephew. it's really nice to talk to them. in fact now they're preparing easter and Im a bit upset that I can't go. haven't seen them for over a year. in may Ill go though. foh sha.

trying hard...

i really am trying hard. however, my man is right, im not trying my best.

i have a bad day today. in fact Im going to the gym for a couple of hours to change that energy.

and then tomorrow Im gonna change my life.

Im trying to get one interview per day now. which is good. until I find the right job for me. and they find me to be the right one for them. makes sense no?

just don't want to be dependent anymore. i've had it. not me. time to make some money people!

btw, I have to say that I do like the beat to rihanna's rude boy. the funny thing is though, that here in Italy most of the people don't get what it's saying. at all. if they did, it would have not been played on the radio, with the pope around and all. ahaha i just find it hilarious!

who knows? maybe the pope goes around and sings along too?!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_hlKKWPKFi0

detox

is what a need. I've always enjoyed the nightlife, but living it EVERY NIGHT is not life. it's hell.

today I woke up "early" at 9.30, and I felt like a zoombie. at lunch I had an interview, and the last question is of course the one that I always have dread, about how much I want in salary.

now, this was for a job in rome, where the average salary is around 900 euros (i know it's ridiculous, but that's life here in italy), so obviously I had to have that in consideration and I said that absolutely minimum I could go was 1200 euros (which is still really really low). dunno how it will go. we'll see. =)

If I would be working for money, I would have taken the marketing manager position in LA (with a slight different salary of between 5000-7000 dollars) however I choose love over money, like so many people do. thank god my man is soooo wonderful then!

after the interview I took off to explore my old loved rome by day again. still like a zoombie (cause I fell asleep at 4.30 and kept waking up outta fear of not hearing the alarm and wake up for the interview, so you can only immagine how I looked today ahahaha)

I met up with my darling G and we had lunch and then we went to my old neighbourhood which is one of the 7 hills of rome-gianicolo! it's just lovely up there. of course i ran into people I know (a habit I inhereted from my daddy I believe). Ironicly one of them had just gotten back from LA and told me about it, good times, good memories!

after a couple of hours with G in the sun I had to go back home before the traffic started. I had forgotten about the roman traffic. it' s absolutely nuts! and you cannot be as tired as I was today cause then you'll be sure to cause some trouble, just like I did. I almost ran into the car in front of me who decided to break all of a sudden. I'm more used to the californian driving now, in fact I stop at the stop signs for 3 seconds and already have a line of cars honking the horn behind me. at red lights I turn right etc. well gimme a week and I'm back to the normal roman driving, even though I might not like it. people are so rude! I almost got into a fight with this woman who busted my balls behind me. well maybe she was just jeolous that Im a natural blonde and she wasn't. hahahaha. in stressful moments you'll always have to keep calm and see the positive side of it. otherwise....you'll miss the beauty of life!

sunny sunny sunny

I had an amazing day yesterday and today!

I've became gym addictive, and it feels great!

when I was in Cali in february I went to a couple of business meetings and mixers and I met a couple of fantastic people, and then many more that I probably never will meet again, nor do business with, they were so to called "filling." However, one guy gave me a book. A fantastic book. Yet I didn't finish it (of course not, c'mon it's not like I am a housewife or something ;)

but from what I've read so far, I've learned a lot. One thing, that everybody tells us, and that of course we know already, is to always be positive, and think greatly of yourself. Easy said, hard done. But lately, from not seeing the daylight, and always always (even if I'll love him 'til death do us part) I've been seeing my man 24/7 and it's not healthy. I lost all my creativity. so last week we told each other stop! and since then I'm slowly getting back to myself. I'm going to the gym and Im there at least 2-3 hrs per day (i have a lot to work on hehe)

and then yesterday I went to a nice dinner party at one of rome's fantastic terraces, with the new friends I've made. fantastic people and fantastic energy! and because of all of this and the sun today, i feel great again!

another thing too: I woke up yesterday determined to find a job and to make no more excuses, so I went online, applied for a job, and three hours later they called me for an interview. so once again, wish me luck!

absolutely nothing

today Ive done absolutely nothing. woke up late cause my dear man had to sleep so we didnt put the alarm, and of course we woke up at 4. PM!!!! mamma mia! i can't take it anymore. im still on cali time but living in rome. crazy. i wanted to go to the gym but I felt disgusting and had to take a shower. he started to laugh and said that only I take a shower before going to the gym, everybody else takes the shower after. well of course, Ill do that too! then i got dressed in my gym clothes and then I got hungry and had to eat. then i got tired and had to make a coffee. and then... and then the time had already flown away and it was 6.30 pm!!!! and it's too late. cause after 6.30 the gym gets full and instead of a gym it turns into a place where the girls wear fully make up and the guys go around and hit on them. so obviously, not the right time to go! in fact my man was like, " but where do you think you are going? to the gym at this time?" ahahahahahaahaha

so today, once again, another day when I've done absolutely nothing. and no, it's not nice! I'm soooo bored. I need to do something. pretty pretty please I want a job! this being a house wife... not my style at all.

In fact I said to him, at least im gonna go to Ikea to buy us new towels, and he started to laugh and dragged me back to bed. so no, not even towels!

well tomorrow is another day! ;)

the sun is out

on the outside. but yet inside its a little darker. im a bit off track, gotta find my path again.

yesterday I was in the gym for 2,5 hours and then in the jacuzzi! really nice, i need more of that, good energy!

today I sent my resume to a really important job. really important. let's hope that theyll call me for an interview at least, then maybe then...I can have my hopes up again. otherwise...ill have to go back to SoCal where I have some jobs lined up already....but this time Ill bring my man along! foh sha

// Life is about trusting your feelings and taking c h a n c e s, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories and learning from the pain, and realize that people always change.//

i've lost it

it has been a month since I've got back from SoCal.

I was all prepared and everything. then i started to help my man out at his club. Fun yes, bad choice YES!

It doesn't matter how much I love him, working together, living together, eating together.. well yeay you got the rest.. leaves us always together!!!! 24/7! it's not healthy, and I've lost it. I've lost the spirit of creating, always waking up late, not seeing the sun and always behind the bar in a crowded place inhaling smoke 8 hours, that is not why I got my two bachelors and masters. Don't get me wrong though, I love the fact that I can actually help him out, and that people like my drinks and that they are coming back. I LOVE IT! I just don't wanna be there every night.

In fact I'm planning an escape for him too, he can't take it anymore either, i mean he's been there every day since this summer...I know he's lost it too! a weekend somewhere else...sounds...just fantastic!

I need to get a job that will keep my good spirits up so I sent my resume to a couple of places. the one place that I least expected a response from, were actually the ones first responding! ha! I guess I haven't lost it all after all! ;)

the sun is out, and the spring is on it's way.... So am I. I'm on my way of finding us a bigger apartment, even though we love our little crib, we won't be able to fit any longer....

Keep your fingers crossed for me that I'll get this job, will ya?!!!